Oh boy... or girl

I've been feeling very slightly funny the last few days. Nothing horrible, barely even noticeable. I was slightly queasy a couple of mornings last week until I ate something and I've been a little extra tired at the end of each day. I chalked it up to the changing season and an oncoming cold.

Today, I am one day late for my period. I decided to get a pregnancy test after class on my way home. I think I kind of knew that i was pregnant - I had had a vision of a white basinette last week and I realized that I was really feeling a little left of center. I didn't want to get my hopes up, so I just talked myself into believing that I wasn't pregnant.

About three minutes after I got home, I stared at the pregnancy test in disbelief.

Pregnant? Me?

I couldn't believe it! The only thing I could think to do is take pictures of the pregnancy test. I wasn't sure how to tell Brian (or even if I should, since this could be a false positive). Then I realized that I really wanted/needed Brian to be a part of this. So I emailed him the pictures of the pregnancy test and called him so I could be on the phone when he opened up the email.

He was so excited, so totally happy, when he saw those pictures. I told him I thought he should come home but I think he was already on his way.

In the next forty minutes, I called my sister-in-law's OB-GYN and made an initial consult appointment for next week, made an ultrasound appointment for mid December, and asked the office nurse about a million questions about what I should/should not do between now and the initial consultation.

Brian came home and we cried and laughed together for a while. We couldn't stop staring at each other in wonder. I took two more pregnancy tests, all coming out positive. I think it's officially official now, I'm pregnant.

I immediately IM'd Erin and told her. I eventually called Matt and told him too. They are thrilled, of course. I'm going to see my parents on Wednesday night, so I think I'm going to tell them in person. I can't wait - they are going to be so excited!

I'm feeling hesitant about telling anyone in Brian's family just yet....especially since Jenny is due in December. Perhaps once she has had her baby and they have a chance to get settled, we'll tell everyone. I just don't want to steal her thunder.

B and I went out to dinner and every couple of minutes would break into giggles. We kept looking at each other and saying, "Oh my God!"

We've already consulted our copy of "What to Expect When You're Expecting." Right now, if our timing is accurate, our baby is really just a bunch of cells (called a blastocyst). The embryo won't be a fetus for another month or so. Wow.

My best guess is that I'll be due in late August or early September. I guess I'll know more in a few weeks. Hard to believe!

There's so much to do and think about and plan. I really want to enjoy the whole process, but I also want to be spiritually awake for the whole thing. I'm hoping this blog will give me an opportunity to record everything - the physical, emotional, psychological changes, the ups and downs of pregnancy, my fear and joy and excitement, everything!

To our new baby - you are already loved and so, so welcome in our lives. I can't wait to get to know you!!